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I'm homesick again. Again.
When some little thing happens, or nothing happens.
It's not important what makes me feel bad.
But it's just...sucks... feel like crying in my heart...

Sometimes I'm thinking why I become like this.
This should not happen, unreasonable.
But sorry, I'm really gloomy =.=

I miss my home.
Even it's Hot. Even parents are annoying. Even... etc.
But there's a place giving me Sense Of Belonging.
A real important thing to mentally survive.

Honestly, Australia is a good place.
Good weather, good land, good government, etc.
But I can't get the happiness as i had.
Because there's no good family & friends.
The only good thing I recently enjoy is spending money.
Shopping, eating, exploring new places or whatever.

But after all, I still feel hollow.
Buy until no space for me to keep them and get annoyed =.=
Maybe just to enjoy the exciting moment when I shop.
Crazy...lol~

Keep looking for somebody to share my happiness/ sadness all the time.
But it seems hard here.
I miss those close friends I had in KL.
And my CAR. Feeling good to drive to anywhere even I'm alone.

Btw, I'm currently worry about my future.
Work? Study? Australia? Malaysia?
A lot to think about, plan about, research about...

One thing I'm happy with lately is my result released.
Quite not bad, feel the achievement finally.
The one I did care about is what I expected can say.
No pain, no gain. ^^

靜。

不應該這樣的。很難受。
可為甚麼，就是很無奈。
我要平靜地度過這一切。好像也不簡單。

一個人的空間，黃色燈泡，慢步調的音樂，陪我一起平靜著。現在。
沒有緊張，沒有不安，沒有煩惱。
當作是時鐘停在某一刻，全世界都停止運作。
我希望這一刻，我可以任意停留它。

想像，一扇任意門，隨時出現。
毫無憂慮的，躲進另一個空間，無須向任何人，交代任何事。

collecting stuff

So long didn't update my blog here LOL
busy & lazy haha
here I go showing some stuff I start to collect lately
fall in love with such color tone & quality collectible =)
feeling of scandal wood & the smell of it ...

My Book =)

So happy. Finally get done my book.
I love japanese stab binding.
I love the matte & yellowish paper stock.
These are all I feel enjoy doing a book.

Went to print today, opposite my uni, the shop Dinkum. Nice =D
Can't find the tools I needed for binding in Eckersley.
Went to a mall in Glen Waverly, Lincraft.
So lucky, I found the awl. Great tool for punching holes on books.
Too things I can found there, really excited~
Plan to learn crochet or knit in the coming holiday on June =)

Here is my binding process last night.
Inner pages lazy showing lol~

I'm regret sewing the title & destroyed it =='
Thank you aunty for buying the last & only one, Lindt bunny metal can.
(with the chocolate being stolen by some kids ==)
I'm sad that missed out many easter boxes this year LOL
(after easter all 50% and sold out now, haiz)

book share 1

Recently, being so Emo .

Hate being alone in some situation, really .
Maybe I'm too sensitive .
I'm blur what's all these . Whatever .

That day, found a small but great bookshop nearby my uni .
name, Greville .
I'm glad I found the book here. Book Design by Andrew Haslem .
Recommended by the lecturer . Very detailed and professional .Buying is a lot faster than waiting for those on loan ones in library .
Gotta digest it nicely in the coming easter holiday =)

今晚睡好

痛苦掙扎后，得到認同，稍有成就。

放心，解脫。

不能鬆懈，必要做到我想看見的成果。

有時在想，為何總做不到預想的效果。

別人能，我要也能。

我要征服你。