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I'm homesick again. Again.
When some little thing happens, or nothing happens.
It's not important what makes me feel bad.
But it's just...sucks... feel like crying in my heart...

Sometimes I'm thinking why I become like this.
This should not happen, unreasonable.
But sorry, I'm really gloomy =.=

I miss my home.
Even it's Hot. Even parents are annoying. Even... etc.
But there's a place giving me Sense Of Belonging.
A real important thing to mentally survive.

Honestly, Australia is a good place.
Good weather, good land, good government, etc.
But I can't get the happiness as i had.
Because there's no good family & friends.
The only good thing I recently enjoy is spending money.
Shopping, eating, exploring new places or whatever.

But after all, I still feel hollow.
Buy until no space for me to keep them and get annoyed =.=
Maybe just to enjoy the exciting moment when I shop.
Crazy...lol~

Keep looking for somebody to share my happiness/ sadness all the time.
But it seems hard here.
I miss those close friends I had in KL.
And my CAR. Feeling good to drive to anywhere even I'm alone.

Btw, I'm currently worry about my future.
Work? Study? Australia? Malaysia?
A lot to think about, plan about, research about...

One thing I'm happy with lately is my result released.
Quite not bad, feel the achievement finally.
The one I did care about is what I expected can say.
No pain, no gain. ^^